My name is Teko, but you call me TK. I’m 27 years old from Johannesburg. I’m gay, proud and was born and raised in Soweto. I decided to share my story about life of an african gay guy and how life has been easy and difficult at the same time. Let’s take a throw back to when I was 16, the year 2002.
I was attending some secondary school in Dobsonville, a 16 year old confused virgin boy who went to a school where there were only straight boys and straight girls (I think) the gay guys that were at the school were openly gay, loud and dramatic. We know those types, queens that’ll do anything for attention. I come from an ‘ok’ family, financially. My mom is a domestic worker in the suburbs of Melrose and my dad is a primary school teacher. So we had an ‘ok’ income. It’s only me, my big sister, she is 25 and my little brother who’s 8.
Back at school. I keep asking “am I gay or straight?” How come I find girls attractive yet guys turn me on. Let’s leave it to that. In class, I’d always picture how it would be like to kiss and hold a guy. I’m a virgin, I’ve never been with anyone but I think of guys mostly, I’m straight acting as they call it now, dark in complexion, well built and a bit short of height. One thing I’ve noticed in my classes is that none of the guys are gay! They’re all so straight. I have no friends whatsoever and the people I talk to, always ask random things like “do you have an extra pen or what homework do we have?”. Right. So I befriend a soccer player whom asked me constantly about homeworks and assessments we had to do. Oh my he’s yummy. Yellow bone, well fit athletic built and tall. We hung out a lot at school mostly, until this one time he asked if I can come over to his house, there’s some party he’s hosting. So I asked my parents if I could go and they refused. Just my luck. I told him the friday I couldn’t go and he seemed disappointed but understood! He lived in Diepkloof. My instincts tell me I should go to the party no matter what. But when the night came, I went out of our window, as skinny as I was, I could fit through. I walked to Diepkloof at that night, and arrived at his house. There were around 4 guys and 6 girls. Wow are they planning some orgy? Oh by the way the soccer player’s name is Siya. Siya welcomed me openly and offered me a drink. Is he serious? I’ve never touched alcohol but it’s Siya damnit who says no to such hot property? I eventually said yes! He offered me a glass of coke and a mixture of the bottle Knights. One glass gave me a brain spin. Siya asked if I want any of the ladies that came, I pointed at the hottest lady there was. Her name was Nomsa. She was so pretty with long dark braids and curvaceous body. Hmm she’s hot but I was just saying that cauz I didn’t wanna expose my confused feelings for men. Siya talked to Nomsa for me but she wasn’t interested. Ha! Did I mention Siya’s other male friends, from school who also play soccer are hot too? But do not match up to Siya! It was 00:20 and everyone started going home. I had 4 glasses and already I was out of it. Yes I was drunk for the first time ! Siya wanted to walk me home but it was too late and dark so he felt it could be dangerous! The streets of Soweto at this time are hectic! So I decided to sleep over. He was home alone! He lived in a 3 bed room house. It was very bigger than ours so they’re kind of rich, in a way. There was a mess with in the lounge so I offered to help cleaning, he looked at me and could see I couldn’t even balance so he said no it’s cool, we should just go sleep! I decided that I’ll sleep on the couch and he’ll go sleep in his bedroom! No Siya warned me that the lounge can get really cold and I should go sleep next to him since he sleeps on a queen size bed. I tucked in next to him, oh sweet heavenly, he only sleeps with his boxers on and socks. So hot! I didn’t wanna get to close to him so I just kept my distance. The bed was spinning, oh no sorry that’s my drunk head. So off he went to sleep, snoring. I was gonna get up at around 04:00 so that I can sneak in back at home. I’ve never done this before! 2 hours into sleeping, I wake up, look at the time and it’s 02:50, in an hours time I have to go home. So I looked at Siya ah he’s cute sleeping. So I just lied there. Siya took his arm around my chest. What the hell? So I pushed it over back to him. I was loving it though I don’t wanna be seen as gay. He returned the arm back and this time leaned closer to my behind! I could feel his D rising and getting hard. What? I’m turning this guy on??? He got closer, and rubbed it off my behind. Oh my now I’m getting hard. He took his boxers off and woke up and asked me to just keep relax, he’s missing his gf. Wow! He’s practically naked! So I turned around and we kissed! My first kiss with my very first guy crush! We continued and he took my clothes off, both naked kissing and being intimate. This is unreal. Siya roughly turned me around and inserted his D into my ass, the pain was bearable, he wasn’t that huge and once it was fully in, he did his thing! I didn’t wanna scream for joy cauz I might wake the neighbours so I moan quietly! Nice and painful. We done shagged and I got up, told him I sneaked out of the house so I have to go home. I dressed and left and ran straight home at 04:00 in the morning! I got into the window and sneaked into my bed, slept like I was in heaven.
I had my alcohol intake, my first gay kiss and my first gay sex or even sex at all. All in one night! In the morning my mom could see I looked like a street abandoned kid cauz I was hungover and looking like hell. She asked where was I? I said sleeping. Why would she ask this? And then ignored me. Ok back to my thoughts of Siya and what we did last night! I’m so in love, even though he had a girlfriend I didn’t care, this boy is mine. I did my assignments and homeworks we had that sunday and couldn’t wait for monday to look at my man. Monday came, on my to school, excited and Siya gave me a weird look and ignored. Acted as if he doesn’t know me. While he’s friends were busy greeting me. Wtf ?
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